21 days!

21 days to go and I can't wait! I'm so tired lately and have been feeling way sick lately. I have had this forever cold and have been just miserable.
Yesterday Matt and I went out to lunch, kind of... we went to this place in scottsdale and walked around some outside boutique things. It was really cute and fun. Every where I go I always get "oh when are you due" and then I say Dec 12. They always say oh that's so soon! Good luck. I think it was weird for Matt to be there with me as I heard this. He would kind of turn his head like he wasn't listening. One person stopped us and said it was going to be a beautiful baby and we should be very happy for this new adventure. He smiled and said thank you. I said we were very excited for our little girl to come into this world. I wish he was excited for it. I wish he understood how hard this is for me.
Lately all my friends have been asking if I am nervous... I say extremely (which I totally am, I don't want to be in labor at all). Then they seem to always ask about if i'm nervous for the handing over part. To be honest I'm trying not to think about it. It scares me, but probably not as much as labor does. I think that it is going to be hard. Writing about it is making me think about it and now I'm getting way nervous. Can I do it? Well I know for sure I can't not do it. AHHH!!! My stake president and bishop are coming over tomorrow to give me a blessing because i am scared and I hope that it will comfort me and help me through this very difficult time.